New Year New Yearning

I'm reassembling pieces of me now, recollecting the spirits once inflamed, to start all over again...need to get away from this comfort zone and be brave enough to be the CHANGE that I've dreamt to see in this world.

After hearing talks by IMAM (Islamic Malaysian Medical Association of Malaysia) upfronts (Prof Hatta, Dr Musa, Prof Rashid) at the 13^th  IMAM Scientific meeting, my spirit rekindled with their unfaded uplifting ideas and advice. The inputs I’ve gained (though I managed to attend one day only) were priceless. It is true that even soul need to be fed and nurtured. 

Thanks to my friend who attend the two days program and brief me on some of the inputs she gained which I missed out. Furthermore, Dr Musa, one of the well-known speaker in the program, had nicely provide some of the important key notes which were addressed at the conference:

• SEERAH - Our glorious medical legacy in the context of maqasid as-syaariah
• SYIFAA - We as instruments of His healing
• IHSAN - In search of excellence
• IQRA’ - Fostering a culture of knowledge & research
• KHIDMAT - We in the service of humanity
• SOLEH WA MUSLEH - Creation of a generation of "soleh" professionals
• ALAMIAH - Global partnerships

Maqasid as-syaariah is the 5 imperatives of Islam and need to be mainstreamed into the map of our age as modernity presently at large & choking its hegemony. As Muslim profesionals, we need to challenge the contemporary axis of power and heading for transformation towards justice. Therefore, operationalising Maqasid in the real world mandates acquiring, embracing
and acting on the following 5 V's (Dr Musa’s mnemonic):

•Visionary 

{ وَٱللَّهُ يَعْلَمُ مَا تُسِرُّونَ وَمَا تُعْلِنُونَ }

“And Allah knoweth that which ye keep hidden) of good or evil (and that which ye proclaim) of good or evil” (anNahl:19)

•Virtuous – virtues, values & morality are central
•Vocal – engaged in scientific discourse
•Visual – the new vocabulary of the global age
•Virtual – the rise of the network scientific society

Some other things mentioned by a religious speaker in the program was regarding on how one's heart can be soften: 1) sick 2) poor 3) dead. While taking care of our health, we shouldn't forget in taking good care of our heart, the main core of our human bodily function. Though it's the only human organ which has spare parts but once it spoiled, it won't recover to its original form... 

I shouldn't be dismay anymore with my lack of skill coz it's time to strive my best

I shouldn't bother what other people think of me coz I know my own limitations and capabilities

I shouldn't be afraid to voice out coz I'm adult enough to make good judgments and decisions

Sudah lama rasanya diri ini tidur 

Tidak mahu lagi bertakuk di air yang lama

Tiba masanya ke depan tanpa berundur

Semoga mimpi yang indah menjadi nyata...

It's time for a new HIJRAH in this new year of Muharram!

Striving while waiting for the call

Labbaikallahumma labbaik
Labbaika La syariikalakalabbaik

                                

It was not long before when I was one of the guest of the Holy land. Hearing the sermon all over again remind me toward my experience of umrah recently this year before Ramadhan. Altogether I wonder whether I've changed myself for the better or not. I've entered a new phase of working experience now as an MO and also in a new place. Alhamdulillah, Allah made my path easy for me so far... in few days time I'm going to start my first on call and while waiting for that call I need to strive my best and prepare myself everyday. I suppose that should be what I'm doing in preparing for hajj and off course preparing myself in meeting Allah in the hereafter. Everyday is a striving day for the better and for us to prepare while waiting for the call..the final call... InsyaAllah.

                                               

I'm sharing here a nice song by Irfan Makki on Hajj - truly an inspiration one. May the spirit of hajj always be in our heart of Muslim as to rekindle our Imaaan...

                                    
Miles away, oceans apart
Never in my sight always in my heart
The love is always there it will never die
Only growing stronger a tears rose down my eye

I am thiking all the time
When the day will come
Standing there before you
Accept this Hajj of mine

Standing in ihram, making my tawaf
Drinking blessings from your well
The challenges that I have suffered
And might rekindles my imaan

O Allah! I am waiting for the call
Praying for the day when I can be near the Kabah wall
O Allah! I am waiting for the call
Praying for the day when I can be near the Kabah wall
I feel alive and I feel strong
I can feel Islam running through my Veins
To see my Muslim brothers, their purpose all the same
Greeting one another, exalting one True Name
I truly hope one day that everyone's a Muslim.
That they remember you in everything they say

Standing in ihram making my tawaf, making my tawaf
Drinking blessings from your well
The challenges that I have suffered
And might were rekindles my imaan

O Allah! I am waiting for the call
Praying for the day when I can be near the Kabah wall
O Allah! I am waiting for the call
Praying for the day when I can be near the Kabah wall

The Road I've Taken

If u feel lost and far from home..

The only way to regain your strength is to return, though for awhile...

That's what i did since in medical school, can't believe i'm doing it again now after 2 years working as a doctor. But i'm happy to be at home again, even for few hours - to see the familiar and beloved faces, sleep on my bed, eat home food, shopping in your hometown areas. I suppose the familiarity and comforts i've gained here made me so homesick whenever i'm away from home. But i've got to sacrifice this luxury if i wanna so much to be an anaesthetist... I need to train myself to be independent and build my self esteem in new place, maybe i can focus more as being away from home. Sometimes when i'm in my low spirit, i thought of quit and left this medical profession. But after refreshing my memory in Golan Height 2 years back in Syria from a documentary in television this morning, i know that i'm on the right track. I need to continue this journey of mine to become a beneficial and competent relief worker for the suffering ummah, no matter where they are, that's my purpose of becoming a doctor in da first place. May Allah grant me with patient and persistence...ameen

Housemanship possible

1. Obstetric and Gynaecology

Started working with scream and crying
Not seeing sunlight for 10 days tagging really depressing
But got some spirit in labour room by DrV's charming

2. Paediatric

Again working with cry but with kids, got to laugh and smile
Really had tough times with DrB in most unwanted KK
Build some stamina by being in longest grand round ever

3. Orthopaedic

Enjoying my moments of leisure as housemanship
Collecting 'mangkuks' from MsA
But thanks to MrAs, having good time in OrthoPaed

4. Medicine

Learned to be independent and voice out my own opinion
Got some issues with DrS in most unwanted ward again
Being scolded and humiliated by DrS but being appreciated by DrJ

5. Anaesthesia

Working under guidance of seniors
Learning to become patient, waiting for the surgeons
Regain some weight that I've lost in medical

6. Surgical

All I can say that everyone is working in fear
The pressure is too much towards the end
But thanks to MrG for making it a happy ending for me :)

O Allah, thank You, for giving me the strength to hold on,
And now I'm FREEDOM...

So just keep holding on...Housemanship possible!