Thank You Allah, I'm blessed

It has been almost more than one year since my last entry in this blog. Maybe I was too preoccupied with my housemanship. That doesn't mean I was working endlessly but I can't deny that I've changed thruout the years, hopefully into a better doctor insyaAllah... I've decided to talk on each posting separately at the end of my housemanship later aite.


After the ups and down I faced in this life, I am gratefully thank to The Almighty for all the blessings he gave me. Maybe I ain't got all the things that I want but I'm happy to always be in acceptance and 'redha'.

There's one new song by Whitney Houston that I like to share, very inspiring and motivating. Really love the phrase "I was not built to break". Hope I'll survive this housemanship till end successfully....
Didn't Know My Own Strength 
song by Whitney Houston

Lost touch with my soul

I had no where to turn

I had no where to go

Lost sight of my dream,

Thought it would be the end of me

I thought I'd never make it through

I had no hope to hold on to

I thought I would break

I didn't know my own strength

And I crashed down, and I tumbled

But I did not crumble

I got through all the pain

I didn't know my own strength

Survived my darkest hour

My faith kept me alive

I picked myself back up

Hold my head up high

I was not built to break

I didn't know my own strength oh

Found hope in my heart,

I found the light to life

My way out of the dark

Found all that I need

Here inside of me oh

I thought I'd never find my way

I thought I'd never lift that weight

I thought I would break

I didn't know my own strength

And I crashed down, and I tumbled

But I did not crumble

I got through all the pain

I didn't know my own strength

Survived my darkest hour

My faith kept me alive

I picked myself back up

Hold my head up high

I was not built to break

I didn't know my own strength

There were so many times I

Wondered how I'd get through the night I

Thought I took all that I could take

I didn't know my own strength

And I crashed down, and I tumbled

But I did not crumble

I got through all the pain oh

I didn't know my own strength

Survived my darkest hour

My faith kept me alive

I picked myself back up

I Hold my head up high

I was not built to break

I didn't know my own strength

I was not built to break

NO NO

I got to know my own strength.

Houseman vs. Medical Student 2

Housemanship is a transition period for a fresh medical graduate in experiencing life as a medical doctor. It can be exciting, tiring and disheartening to some people. These actually are also happening to the medical students but they are different to some extent.

First is responsibility. As a medical student, I am responsible to study well in order to equip my knowledge in order to be a good doctor and bring honour to my university. But as a houseman, I am responsible mainly to my patient because now I am directly involve in their management and treating them.

Second is accountability. Medical student may be excused for not knowing certain procedures or management. But as a houseman, I am being obliged to bear the consequences for failure to perform as expected. This is because I need to be well equipped during this period of time so that I can be relied on in the future. I also need to acquire the courage to admit my mistakes, mend my ways and to forgive the wrongs of others.

Third is night duty or on calls. During my medical student’s time, I also did calls, but whatever it takes, I was still able to go back and sleep in my room. As a houseman, I need to sacrifice my night time for sleep, and allowed to be awaken in the middle of night to attend patients, regardless how sleepy and tired I am.

Fourth is practicality. Five years in medical school have taught me many things and also mentally prepare me on life as a houseman. But once I’m experiencing it then I can understand why certain housemans during my student years appeared with various of facial expressions and mood. Medical student may somehow be theoretical in their management plan but as a houseman, I learned to be more practical and sensible in the management. I still remember one of my lecturer’s advice that every patient comes to you is different, so treat them properly, even though some may have similar disease.

Last but not least is sincerity. Although I got pay as a houseman, I need to bear in mind to be sincere in my doing as to extend my hand of service to all, the rich and the poor, to friend and foe alike, regardless of race, religion or colour. As a doctor, I am only an instrument of God Mercy and responsible to exercise justice, love and compassion for all the creation. May God grant me the strength, patience and dedication to adhere to the oath which I took as a medical doctor.

Houseman vs. Medical Student

Hm, it has been quite some times since my last entry, which was before i began my housemanship, almost 4 months back. Now i'm finishing my first posting, lots of things happened throughout these 4 months, but i just ain't got the time to put many entries here, part of it coz too tired with housemanship life. Anyway, my first posting: OnG, the least posting i want to be but now I'm thankful for being here coz the risk of me floating as a medical officer here is very unlikely :)
I need to write an essay on Housemanship vs Medical Student, which is one this of compulsory requirement for all house officers before they are leaving this department. It's not a difficult essay for me though I just being a doctor officially for 4 months, but I've gained few important points here in HKL:

1. Responsibility
2. Accountability
3. Resilience
4. Maturity
5. Sincerity

As tomorrow is my working day, so i will elaborate on these 5 points after few days, of course before i submit my essay for evaluation, ahaks, just like someone will really read my essay, kwang kwang, gotta go now...