I'm a Doctor, can u believe it?

Prof Naznin (our head of academic affairs) entered the lecture room, which are filled with eager and anxious medical students, waiting for the grand finale results of 8th batch final professional exam. She decided to call only the names who pass, as she read the list one by one, then turned into next page and then next page, my heart pumped fast and I became more nervous...what if my name won't be called? what if I fail?Then my name was called...Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah...I uttered that grateful and thankful words many times cause I know I won't get here if not from His blessings and guidance.
Within minutes, the room was filled with laughter and crying from the students. Everyone started to make a phone call to their parents and loved ones.

But then, there are still people who cried and sad for our other friends who didn't being called. I won't say they are failures but their joy of success just being held for another 6 months, after all they will still going to be doctors...They must having a very tough time though but Allah chose them to face this trial of life, so they must be very special in a way. Alllah stated in the Holy Qur'an:

"Allah burdens not a person beyond his scope..." (Al-Baqarah: 286)

Then we have our 'special' oath taking ceremon: Muslim Oath Physician. It was a memorable moment and remind me who I am supposed to be, my responsibilities and the Islam name that I will carry as I am a graduate of International Islamic University of Malaysia. I know, people out there have high expectations from us.



After having interview session for our job, we had our Annual Grand Dinner at Swiss Garden Hotel. I pitied to some of my friends who are working very hard for this program coz supposed they should be enjoying that night and attend as guests, not busy committee members...huh that's what happened when we are too nice. By the way I think we all had a good time in the end.

And now what? It has been 2 weeks away since my last day in Kuantan Campus, IIUM. What a memory I had.I'll miss:

My spectacles coz I had my LASIK done at ophthalmology clinic (Thanks to Dr khairidzan, Kak Linda, and the staff members), my friends' cars coz I won't get a ride with them after this as I need to drive my own car,he, the mahallat al-Zahrawi/Maimunah, and my 5 years room stay (the place I escape from tiring days...). And not to forgot my dearest friends and lecturers. Because they are so special, I will write about them on another special edition :)





Now I don't have to think on how would I get back to Kuantan (by bus or get a ride with some of my friends), I am no longer need to think on exams, attending lectures and preparing seminars etc. As a medical graduate, I don't have to be afraid of finding job coz we are the only course which already have job waiting even before we graduate. But there are something which afraid me, how should I face the outside world then as a doctor, without my lecturers to guide/scold me, without my books or notes...people expect a doctor to know EVERYTHING, and that really makes me creepy. I'm not a perfect and most intelligent person, I just want to be a SAFE and RELIABLE doctor....and I know this journey will take much further than I thought.

Season In the Sun

Few days ago, I accompanied my friend to distribute her wedding cards to our previous high school teachers.. The funny thing about me is, I tend to call them Dr coz it has been a routine for me to call my lecturers back at Kuantan as Dr (well they are medical doctors). This shows that I have the same impression and respect to all that has taught me, regardless their background of education, Thank You Teachers and Doctors.

When I step back to my school, looking at the same building but with some add up here and there (especially the plants and ponds, Well done Pn Fuziah!), it seems like a playback for me, when I was at the school 7 years ago. Time past away very fast, it seems just like few years back I was still wearing the school uniform and going to biology labs and doing experiments with my fellow friends. When I met the teachers, it was like a new spirit and courage for me to go on and be success in this life, realizing how big their hope toward us. Some of my friends said that I was the teacher’s pet back then but I don’t think so. I wish I could rejuvenate myself and gather back all the energy and courage I’ve had when I was young… have passion with what I’m doing…Cayo!

SURGICAL EXAMS...

Alhamdulillah, I've reached another year of maturity today, turning into 24 years old. Maybe that's make today lighten a bit after a quite devastating (again) experience of surgical exam. 'De javu' is an impression of having seen or experienced something before. That's what I felt when I was taking my shortcase this morning, with the same lecturer, and similar type of case that caused me severe mental block and anxiety...what a bad experience..phew, than I've got to reexamine, but yet I'm not satisfied with my performance, I knew I could do better than that.. but when I look back, there must be always 'hikmah' in all these.. I should learn from mistake...

“My past is my wisdom to use today. . . my future is my wisdom yet to experience. Be in the present because that is where life resides.”
Gene Oliver quotes (Former American baseball player b.1935)

“One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.”

May Allah guide me to presevere and steadfast in this journey of world.Ameen...

Never, Ever Give Up!

Who says that being a medical student as if like being on top of the world? Medical students face difficulties and challenges everyday. Sometimes, we tend to ponder whether we’ve made the right choice or somehow regret and questioning ourselves: From hundreds or thousands of courses in this world, why I chose this course? If only I....We always complaining that there are so many things to remember, impossibilities, the lecturers do not understand etc. However, we forget that this is the choice that we’ve made few years back when we put our first step into the medical school. Whether this is for the sake of our family or our own choice, we’ve already decided to become a medical student. So, you shouldn’t complain as you’ve ask for it (to be a medical student)! Furthermore, when patience is no longer a choice, it’s a matter of survival…

But I’ve read these 2 verses from Qur’an, that really give me comfort and strength in continuing this journey of becoming a doctor:

“Setiap bencana yg menimpa di bumi dan yang menimpa dirimu sendiri, semuanya telah tertulis dalam Kitab (Lauh Mahfuz) sebelum Kami mewujudkannya. Sungguh yang demikian itu mudah bagi Allah. Agar kamu tidak bersedih hati terhadap apa yg luput dari kamu, dan tidak pula terlalu gembira terhadap apa yang diberikan-Nya kepadamu. Dan Allah tidak menyukai setiap orang yg sombong dan membaggakan diri,” (Al-Hadid: 22-23).

There’s also a poem that I’ve had from my elder sister’s bookmark, very inspiring one:

Never, Ever Give Up!

There maybe times when things aren’t the way we hope it to be,

Everything looks impossible and we feel like just giving up…

But then, sometimes, we just have to give it another chance,

Another try, just one more time…

Take things a step at a time.

Do what works best for you.

Be hopeful as you embrace each moment.

Use your inner strength and qualities.

Keep on believing that you can do it.

Look out for the positive light to shine on you.

You may just find that what seem difficult has just been made right.

Study Circle

Last Friday, we had the usual Friday class of Islamic Input in the evening. I thought it will be another lecture that I should refrain myself from getting sleep. But there were very important points that were carried out from the lecture hall I suppose:

• Halaqah (study circle) was actually an Arabic word means “a circle”. It is a continuous commitment and a dynamic process. There will be time for those in it to guide others later on. It is a personal development (zatiyah), that will help the building of the ummah.
• Each Muslim requires the realization toward their responsibility as a Muslim to the ummah. There shouldn’t be room for ‘selfish’ among them e.g. nafsi bi nafsi. This is because, the involvement in Islamic work is the responsibilities of every Muslims toward Allah s.w.t.

“As for those who strive hard in Us (Our Cause), We will surely, guide them to Our Paths (i.e. Allah’s religion – Islamic Monotheism). And verily, Allah is with the Muhsinun (good doers).” (al-Ankabut: 69)

• Question to ponder: With the busy and limited time we have everyday as a medical student, how can we learn and understand more on Islam, to be a better Muslim, who practise Islam as the way of life, in order to enter heaven? Is it enough with the obligatory 5 prayers in a day, which only took about 50 minutes in a 24 hours (a day)? Are we eligible for the promised heaven by Allah then?